My BiG BiG STONE!!! in my heart~*

a very tired morning...
keep going yarning...!
urhhhrrhh!!! so tired...
haiz.... not enough sleep ooo!!!
(reason is...i watch tv til too late jor) =X
so... a very inactive KJY in scol....hentak-ing kaki...
whole day with the commands by yuen wei : : : :
SKOOT!! BARIS SEDIA...
SKOOT!!! LULUSKAN BARISAN....LULUS~
SKOOT!!!! DARI DEPAN... CEPAT JALAN!!!!~
SKOOT!!!!! BERHENTI....!!
omg....so many times till i can memorize all ald...
kakakazzz ^^...

abt the big stone...
actually for more accurate words to describe is...ROCK...
more YENG ler~
hhahazzz till now still can jokes...=_=|||
the big ROCK... is abt a ppl...
she always makes me go forward not dare...
turn it back will menyesal...
always makes me unhappy...
i think i also got made her unhappy be4...
till now aso got...
it is becuz... there is a invisible wall between us...
we both used many many ways to destroy it...
but it still din works!!!
haiz... so sad... y me so POOR DER!!!!!
i really dunno how to do...
cuz sometimes... for important things i need to discuss v u...
but it is very very HARD!!!
man~ =_=!!!
becuz of not dare?
or cuz scare the results still same v be4...
CONFUSING ARHZZZ!!!!!!! T.T
WHO CAN HELP ME??
I REALLY NEED SOME CLUES AND THE BEST KEY TO OPEN THE LOCKER~ 8-(

oh ya...
today Jing Yi had a piano exam ooo!!
dunno how is she going on??
2morrow gotta ask her...
may GOD bless her...
i got pray for her ooo!!! XD
JIA YOU my fren~*
u sure no problem d...
GAMBATEH OOO ^^!!!!

today d fungky family still remain same...
HAPPY ALWAYS...
SMILES...
LITTLE CUTIE ARGUE...
SO GOOD...
IS THAT A XING FU D TASTE AND SMELL SURROUNDING BESIDE US?
YES!!!! I SURE ABT THAT...
oh ya...
yann don like ppl to take out her pin ooo^^
hahazzz...
phebe become prettier than be4 jor...admire~*
poh yee looks like none of sadness and angryness jor...CONGRATEZZZ =D

I WISH MY FRIENDSHIP AND LEADERSHIP WILL BECOME BETTER!!!~*
ALL D BEST JAR~! XD
AND MY ALL FRENS...
YONG YUAN XING FU KUAI LE ^^...

my FIRST bloggie in www.starfruitcherrish.blogspot.com^^

whoa~
now i write my first diary in blogspot lur~*
today...
a day without Michele...
really...kinda boring and lonely...
although there is many frens besides me...
but if i din saw her...
something like lost and blank...
hahazzz...always like that r u...lost ald then felt its expensive...
wakaka XD

a day with new pengerusi...
although i felt improve a little than be4...
but still not enough in the relationship with frens...
haiz... somebody still dislike me...
need to improve more ooo!!!^^~
GAMBATEH jar...

actually... i felt ur heart is talking to me...
u hope i can talk to u first...
but i dunno y i cant step and walk in front u...
not enough dare?....BINGO!!!
i really not enough brave to talk to u...
i really lack confidence when i being ur frens...
sorry...
thats oni i can say here...
this secret...maybe will keep going til forever...
however i never hope of this result coming soon...

loepmgo5n arh...
actually...
something i wan to tell u...
but i dunno where to start...
and how to start...
okay...
i decide to say it here...
actually that day we have a gathering in lm...
before...i really very happy...
cuz i frightened that i can communicate v her very well...
but till a few hours...
i saw something that py also saw it...
and actually she also put it in her heart very long time jor...
maybe u miss her very much...
plus u and phebe d friendship is very good and close...
but sometimes...
can u care more abt me and py??
some of the moment...
maybe u r very happy...
but me and py not so...
and just like a impurity that throw besides...
and u just care of main character...
but how abt minor character leh???
i kno u must very hurt and hate when u read this...
i kno it is very nan de d chance to meet her...
but can u just more care abt me and her??
we r just like be ignore to the other side...
this feelings is worse than when u read my diary...
i am not really wan to say it out...
but i really cant tahan jor...
maybe u hurted right now...
but if i din say it out...
u will never care abt it...
sorry if some sentences hurted u deeply...
but this is the feelings and words i wan to tell u abt...
u and sy is different...
her problem is worse than u...
u just got a little bit...
just wanna to tell u.... maybe some xiao xi jie u dosen't care it...
but for me i really care...
I AM NOT THE ONE TO HURT U...
JUST SOMETIMES IF I CHOOSE TO NOT SAY IT OUT...
THEN I REALLY A STUPID...
I DID IT MANY TIMES...AS A STUPID...
SO START FROM NOW...
I CHOOSE TO SAY IT OUT EVERYTHING...
THE MAIN POINT IS...I DIN MEAN IT TO HURT U...JUST WANNA TO TELL U...^^